You don't want to love - your eternal and abnormal craving is to be loved. You aren't positive you're negative. You absorb absorb as if you must fill yourself up with love because you've got a shortage somewhere.
I am very abnormal But it wasn't very long ago that I wasn't so abnormal. I was very normal and headed for a lifetime of paying medical bills as proof of my normalcy.
Autism is a neurological disorder. It's not caused by bad parenting. It's caused by you know abnormal development in the brain. The emotional circuits in the brain are abnormal. And there also are differences in the white matter which is the brain's computer cables that hook up the different brain departments.